This is the fourth day I spent being away to my beloved partner, Kiev. I am not used to it, and it is very difficult for me to adjust on this kind of setup that we have. I’m having a hard time to cope up. I know you may say that I am overreacting on this or whatsoever, but this is how I feel.
People have their own problems to deal with, and this issue is nothing compare to others. Actually, being away to him makes me vulnerable to in dealing with my issues that concerns my family and other stuff. But when I’m with him, just by looking at him whenever he is not aware makes me feel stronger. Just by hearing his voice, makes me sleep soundly. Knowing that he is always there by my side, I feel I can face anything. With our little fights, it makes me realize how much I really want to help him to become a better person.
He is not a perfect partner, neither do I. We have our own flaws and issues that we are working out on the course of our relationship. We make mistakes, doubts, complaints, and lies. But we make sure we clarify all these things at the end of the day.
But now, he’s far away from me. I don’t know how I am going to start and even end my day. I am used to seeing him while he’s asleep and cuddling him before sleeping.
I miss him so bad. I can’t prevent myself from crying all night and even while making this entry. I love you, Kiev. I miss you so much.